i held up cut wires to my temple

and turned the power on high to the amp

it was sunday

i was living with a roommate at the time

he heard my screams

and saved me from my damnation 

//

since leaving the hospital,

everyone around me seems ‘nervous.’

i say, “i’m going to my room now.”

“oh….okay.. leave the door open..” they say quietly

but my door has been taken down anyway.

i live back home with my parents

and my younger sister

i spend most of my time

either reading in the living room

or going for walks

alone

~maybe he is more dead now than before~